melancholic heart

Bye

2009-12-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

I've begin to hate blogging..
cuz it's not helping much nowadays..
it's a lot of trouble with all the typings typings and just have to type type type!
i don't like to type on my phone,or keyboard or anything that has to do with typing!!
but sometimes typing on the phone is not something that i could avoid totally..
and how daft can i be when i say i hate typing and i'm still typing here
telling you how i hate typing..wtheck?

Should i close this down?

The Cruel Fact

2009-12-07T19:57:00.002+08:00

life could be so short,cruel,unfair and torturing..
one minute you could be jolly well,another minute you could be at the darkest part of life..
struggling to get out yet no changes could be made
is this karma from our last life of what we had done?
it remain as an unsolved mystery..
yet my friend live your life to the fullest and cherish your loved ones..
live everyday as if it's gonna be your last..
i'm doing it now..are you?

2009-10-28T19:34:00.001+08:00

So i'm gonna start with how my blog is so dead..but there's reasons behind these.
i'm extremely busy nowadays..flooded with assignments every week..
from common law,public law,contract to criminal law..to make it worse it's not easy papers to deal with..
especially criminal law..it's fun and interesting but at the same time it's a tough subject.
have a lot more to catch up!
Nevertheless,i enjoy all my classes and love the hectic life,
i felt like at least i have things to do..meaningful stuffs
and i learnt a lot from each classes,i enjoy all the lectures except for the assignments part..

Speaking of assignments,i think i haven't done my criminal assignment..

Damn..gtg Ciaoz!

life

2009-10-13T22:27:00.007+08:00

Again,i took weeks to update
well,it's gonna be one hell of a boring entry..
so click away if you're not interested in continuing reading it,
i'm stressed out and need a place for ranting,i hope it doesn't bother you,
well i assumed everyone had their own problems and setbacks that they're going through..
i don't normally express out a more emotional side of me here,

let's just say i just need something to update this half dead blog..
i'm not the kind of person who enjoy being at home..i'm much more delighted when i don't need to be at home..
there was once i went to my friend's house,her mum was exceptionally kind and friendly..i was surprised and that's most probably that's not how my mum would react..
she don't really care how my friends feel or me,if she's upset she'll just show it all out..
which i think it's not really a good idea..
and i have run out of ideas not to do anything that would upset her..

i didn't indicate she's wrong or right but she should at least show some respect to my friends..
everything could be blamed on us and she's never wrong..
i'm devastated..
is it just me or what?
what do you want from me?
I'm just a 19th year old teenager..

Tsunami Fury

2009-10-02T14:28:00.001+08:00

So today read the newspapers and read an article about a tragedy at Samoa.
More than 100 people were killed,scores injured and many were missing as an 8.0 magnitude earthquake triggered a tsunami which wrecked destruction.
And a second 7.9 magnitude earthquake hit Indonesian Island of Sumatra and now prompting the Pacific Tsunami Qarning Centre to issue a tsunami watch..and i hope with these,no more lives would be taken.
Reading all these news and reports make me realized we're lucky..
i'm lucky to live here as there's hardly any disasters here..well what we got is not the worst.
i feel sorry for those victims who lost their homes and loves one when the disaster occurred.
i would love to remind anyone whose reading this blog right now.
cherish those you love now so you won't regret when anything at all happens in the future..
be alert now..
any disputes with family & friends,just let it go..
be forgiving..
i would like to say i love my parents very much..
thx for all the love you gave me

BBQ!!

2009-09-27T11:48:00.001+08:00

Whee!Swing swing swing

so now it's time to update about the bbq party we had last thursday

before i reach Quan Chong's house went to lots of places..

took the bday cake from secret recipe then chin pin and wen yee drove me to all places..they went to take their wages and then off to have lunch at skudai..

after that went wen yee's shop and took all the stuffs we need and off to jia yi's house..

okay her mum was super friendly..she can bring all types of food & cookies to serve us..felt like it was CNY

but it's not a bad thing..i love friendly mums!

then off we go to his house around 3 something and meet up with nn and mm around 4 something

i didn't go with them as i need to collect the cake..poor me =( but still it was fun..

It's about to start!!

he only knows how to look in kitchen!but of course his job is to lead ppl from outside to his place..haha

ps: i was slacking in the living room too.

so finally it started..they were trying to light up the fire with charcoals while me just watching..haha

useless bum..

he's trying to act macho = =

snap snap snap!

gosh look at my brother haha flirting around lols

finally we took out the surprise!

She seriously fell for it..for 2 years consecutively haha tsk tsk tsk

Making a wish

oh ya!we got her mango delight!

group photos of girls

and tadaa!!all the "machos"

he was thrown into the pool & he seriously looks like he enjoyed it

the cake was distorted..

it was all siow wee ping's doings!

and us!!swim swim swim

and my brother trying to be sexy..fail la you!

that's all for today!

Ciao!

Hyper!

2009-09-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

BBQ updates soon right after i got the pics k!!Promise!!

ps* IT WAS A BLAST

2009-09-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

BBQ!!!

Yay!Finally
I was so looking forward to it!
Gonna Have some real fun!
these few days lots of dramas happened to my dear friend
but who cares..not as if we give a damn to it..= =
but they just thought so..and feeling so ecstatic about it -.-!!
But felt like watching a show or whatever in a circus
they're the clowns and we're the spectators..not bad not bad..

Love you!

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-18T00:44:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Babe!

Happy for you

you finally got what you deserved

Have a sweet sweet birthday celebration!

random

2009-09-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

well i'm not a big fan of miley cyrus..but this song pretty much describes my life now..

so enjoy it...

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb,

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb,

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith,

short & simple

2009-09-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Sitting on the floor

in MPH...

and guess what are we doing?

engrossed

....

...

And we're pokemon-ing!

i haven't watch it for damn long

we treated MPH like our very own living room...

that's all for today!

Nights

Updates

2009-09-06T16:07:00.001+08:00

fooling around again as usual

love this place cause it's relaxing

and us again..

today let the pictures say it all..

let's just say we had a fun & at the same time nerve wracking?

they would know what it means.=D

sometimes ppl just do really retard things

sometimes it's just momentary lapse of judgement..

but at some times they really are just "retard"

guess that's how retard they are

shopping spree

2009-09-05T22:12:00.002+08:00

I've been shopping a lot this week

Argh have to stop!

Although it's really hard

but i really have to stop!

saw a skinny totally love it and it was half priced!

how could i miss this chance

then a blazer,i swear it looks absolutely stunning

i just have to get it home!

and then some other random stuffs

i want to open a lookbook website

with 3 to 4 persons would be updating it

so support it k!

that's what friends for

2009-09-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

No pics today because it's with jm..so will update bout today's outing later.
my beloved best friend,just wanna tell you no matter what happened we'll always be at your side ok?
just relax yourself and think carefully..
don't make the wrong decisions
we all love you!and we'll always be the best shopping mates!=)
never change ok!!??
HUGS & Kisses
XOXO

for these,i pray

2009-09-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

Lord,Please watch over my dad

he's the best i ever had

i can't let anything happen to him

and other than praying for him

i know i could do nothing no more..

if there's anything just let it fall upon me,

i love him more than anything.

weather

2009-09-01T11:40:00.001+08:00

love the weather here..

dark grey sky with strong winds

with a nice song on

the feeling is just so strong..

reminisce all the things i've been through

& i miss it a lot

if we can't see now

we might never see...

i miss my family

love you guys

you're the best i ever had

just love it

2009-08-30T18:39:00.007+08:00

hey guys!

just reconstructed my layout..

got bored of trying to search nice blogskins

finally made something simple & just simple

and i simply love it! =P

It's midnight & i miss my babes
never meet them since thursday..
tomorrow's national day,Happy Birthday Malaysia!
heck!can't go out tomorrow!!
have to stay at home like a good girl..

i want to go for a road trip..
alone?maybe with a few friends
have fun and go crazy
god,i miss my friends..
take care,all of you out there!

Outing

2009-08-27T22:12:00.015+08:00

So as promised i really tried to update every day now..i'm doing good rite?lol

But that two friends of mine haven't been enlightened yet..you guys should update everyday k!

So wednesday we went out for dinner?it's the first time we had dinner together with the only three of us.

Cause always i'm not allowed to stay out too late,always have to be home before 6pm..sounds so bad right?maybe the only advantage is that i'm safe at home.But who knows some psychotic idiot wouldn't barge in your house and harm you?nowadays anything could happen k..

look at my 2nd brother,he's playing pokemon!!i know guys like to play games but come on,can u guys choose more mature games?at least??

Got caught eating away all the cornflakes..ate too much now really feel like puking when i think about it..Xp

I love this pic!we look so sweet!but we're not dyke,we're straight ok??

Love these cakes

And here's a series of unglam pics of me:

2nd and 3rd pic is candid i think..haha

Cheesy

we had like 3 main dishes,1 side dish,2 cakes & 3 drinks

when we place our orders the waiter was stunned how these 3 girls gonna eat all that?

But we did finished all of em Xp

All these pictures were taken by Jm.

Feel free to click in & have a look.

If she doesn't have any updates,feel free to scold too. =D

Loads of Craps

2009-08-26T21:25:00.004+08:00

why is it there in this world exist such person who are so inquisitive in everyone's business?

is it because their lifes' so full of craps and they just wanted to poke into everyone else business?

firstly,do they feel better about themselves?

are they please knowing everyone's business and what does that benefit them?

they only make themselves a worst person and not worthy as a friend at all.

Secondly,they love to judge ppl.

they judged their looks and how they behave and stuffs but..honestly they're not any better than them?

it's like as they're mocking others at the same time they're indirectly referring themselves..Xp

of course they didn't realized that..i guess that's the funniest part for me.

thirdly,they're really juvenile

how is it you can take someone else's weakness as a joke and expect them to take it lightly & you actually reacted like there's world war III when others uses ur weaknesses to crack a joke?

hey,if you wanna do that to someone elses think it before you do..would you like if someone treats you like that?would you like it?well if you don't..you have no rights to say that they were mean.Because afterall,you started it.That is what we call 'karma'.So you can shut your gap up.

Please Stop Poking Into Other's Businesses,

And Stop Being So Inquisitive which is really annoying,

Stop Being Juvenile and for God's sake,

God gave us lips,voices,ears and eyes to see how wonderful this world are and to speak kind words.

But not for you to minding everyone's business and talk about it to flaunt how 'great' you are.

Cause at last it only shows how 'bad' and 'unworthy' you are.

Xp

2009-08-26T21:30:00.002+08:00

Just Had Girl's Outing

Updates Soon!

If the woman would send me all the pics..

Hmmm Let's See how long she would take.

Hehe..

=D

2009-08-25T22:26:00.007+08:00

So i realized that i've been updating on and off
i will at least Try to blog more oftenly to keep my blog updated but not the boring blog that you have to visit once a week or a month Xp
so i'll have to try to make this blog seem more interesting and not so bored anymore
like more pictures and videos?

Talking about videos..i have this really outdated clip that we took like 3 months ago?
but i didn't really put it up here yet.
So i guess,enjoy the show:
Edited by YJ Chang

We had lots of presentations for LAN which all of us have to speak in malay?!
i've not used it for like almost frigging TWO YEARS!!
But we had lots of fun during the process..we actually shopped for formal??
okay for people who don't shop oftenly would think why is these girls shopping for formal when they only have to wear it once for that particular day??!!But on the other side,i would say hey come on..you're only 19th for once in a whole life.You're only studying in college or uni for the most 6 years?well unless you are taking med which will take a very long time to graduate or unless you flunk for more than 10 years before you can graduate....

So why don't you just do what you love what you want when you're young..live life to the fullest without forgetting the purposes in your life of course.
well shopping is just one of my favourites.
and i guess collecting jackets,coats and blazers is one of them??i must say i'm obssessed with it.

i love this pic..simply because we can only see ynn's half face,jm's three quarter and my full face.

he actually got caught doing 'dirty things' eww

i love my blaze..

I guess that's it for now..

^ ^

2009-08-12T21:11:00.005+08:00

nowadays kinda busy with assignments

for lan??haha

life sucks cause i have to retake GP

it also sucks cause i've been having mood swings?

not serious one though..

been feeling really alone sometimes

but i enjoyed it

being alone,doing my own things

and don't have to give a damn about others?

but sometimes i would prefer to have a bunch of friends get together

i think i really am gonna miss this feeling

so i have to enjoy like nobody business!

and i gonna miss my two besties the most ok!!

we went almost everywhere together

done lots of stuffs together

seriously i gonna miss those days the most

i hope we can never grow up and stay by each other sides

but that's just a childish kind of mindset

but it's better not to think to think too much

than worrying about every single damn thing

that's what adults do

i have to enjoy my teen life and live like one?

i just have to say i love my friends

i'm lucky and blessed to have you guys

and having you guys being a part of my life,

i'm more than blessed and no words could pen out

how much more colours you guys had added to my life

you may say i'm easily satisfied

but that's the secret to happiness =D

2009-08-11T19:52:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling totally down now

with no reason

just really emo

can't describe how i feel now

just wish everything stop & end now

what's the reason of having a life here?

why we human have so many emotions flowing through our mind?

sometimes i wish there's something i could do

to make it better or not?

human is just another complex that can't be solved..

Ordinary Grumbles

2009-07-28T19:16:00.005+08:00

You're like the worst person i've ever met
how can one be so selfish & never think for others?
as if you're like the most important person
nothing worst could be compared to you
For god sake can you be more considerate?!
think for others especially when they are your family?

complaining too much
Phew at least i felt much better

Random

2009-07-24T22:05:00.011+08:00

yes i'm dyke haha just kidding k
but we look like a couple
so today after class we went to do our favourite thing
snap snap!!

hmm she looks like a ghost beside me..
with the long hair and white shirt
haha she was talking on the phone

she never wants to take proper pics
but her face looks sharp here
nice rite!

lols unglam moments

lols jm look at her new hairstyle

snaps!

haha we just sat around for a while then we went home!
so my post today is like uber bored
sorry to draft in such a boring post
=_="